Blabber Jabber

It has been a long time since my last post and I blame Medicine for that! Naaah not entirely :P I must say, my attention was kindda diverted towards instagraming and facebooking and after a while, I sort of got a ''revelation'' and became really uninterested (more like lazy) to post too much about my life on fb anymore but I still want to keep a journal for me to look back and reminisce :) I tried getting a Moleskin, well that lasted for a few months, hahaha.. So I thought, maybe I should try blogging again! Might as well just do it while I'm in the mood to blog right now!!!

I am now back in Kulim for my summer break. It feels so refreshing to be home after a very tough year in Med School. Third Year Med, where do I begin! I learnt a lot and I must admit that it kindda changed me a tiny bit as a person, good change hopefully. What else is new? Hmmm, oh ya,  I am yet to know the results for my summer exam in a few days! Tbh, the nerves are getting to me sometimes, not too bad (NOPE, IT'S ALL THE TIME and IT'S BAAAD!) ;)

Goshhh summer breaks make me really excited! All the free time to fill in with activities, hii hii hii.. In my head, I have a lot planned for this summer so I am going to do some serious organizing soon! Hopefully this year I'll get to make better use of my free time cuz truthfully there ain't such thing as free time, time is gold, so never let it go to waste!!! 

Yours Truly, 

jet lagged lil owl

Last 10 days of Summer Break

I've had the best Summer break, it has been a total blessing from the start for without it I wouldn't be in Malaysia at all. The feeling is amazing, to be in the comfort of my family and bestfriends, spending Eid Al-Fitri with them and enjoying all the food here, simply amazing.

To top it off, I've just found out that I might be completing my degree in Ireland instead of coming back to Taiping this coming January for my clinical years. So I will be there for another 3 years, insyaAllah! It's only in my wildest dream to ever think that I'll be getting such miracle, alhamdulillah Allah knows best :) Everything comes with a price though. If the news is legit, then I have to use this second chance of being in Europe wisely. I must study harder and try to engage in more extra curriculum activities this time around, insyaAllah!

GOSH I need to sit down and soak everything in slowly right now! *Breathe in, breathe out* Can't believe how these two months passed by me so quickly and I'm yet to complete my travel logs, do some shopping, meet a few more people and eat my favorite foods before I fly back to Ireland. Oh and I need to finish reading my current read!! OMG! 

I better start soon! :D 10 days left!! Bittersweet feeling phase starts now.

Holding On & Letting Go

''Keep Calm and Carry On'' goes the cliche. No matter how hard life gets, just keep swimming, that's what I was thought.

At this age, I'm starting to learn about the world a tiny bit more seriously. I have these questions about how things work, what was here before and how to have a better future, yadayadayada. The more I learn the more I become so curious about the things around me so I start observing. It's sadly funny how the quote 'Change is the only constant thing' turns out to be indeed really true. Moreover, having my own set of values that I gathered along the road somehow affects the way I see the people around me right now compared to the way I remember them a couple of years ago. I feel like I'm more connected to most of them and unfortunately a bit distant to a few. It's interesting how our thoughts could change according to appropriate maturity levels :)

Among the things I picked up was that everyone has their own arrays of problems and dramas just as much as the blessings that they were granted. Friends, well good friends actually, are indeed one of the most precious gifts one could get. As a friend myself, I aspire to become a better listener and a warmer company, just like what I would have wanted in a good friend. Silly me, I used to think relationship problems are child's play after I've encountered a few real life complications such as someone suffering from a stroke or cancer because most of the times, people with these chronic illnesses have way more positive outlook on  life compared to those suffering from fruitless relationships. However, I now realized that each and every problem is as significant as long as it has been affecting someone's quality of life in any ways. Try not to set a bar just so you could briefly measure and hastily decide whether the problem is interesting enough to get your undivided attention,be considerate and more compassionate. Give what you can even when you know there's nothing in it for you because to me, having someone saying 'You're not alone in this' would mean a lot in any situations  :) Everyone faces different battles and based on my experience, we just need a shoulder to lean on and maybe a strong set of arms for some comforting (especially for people like me, hugs make me feel better) :P Let's try to be positive about the trials thrown in our ways and try harder to avoid being negative about it. Every problem has a solution, inshaAllah :)

Feeling all mushy inside

Lately I've been having this idea of owning a Moleskine journal because I've always wanted to try sitting at the corner of my room, right beside the window and write it all on papers. Somehow a tiny voice in me successfully convinced me that I won't have the time for that right now and it's not urgent :P So I blog instead.

19 days left til my flight back to London. Gosh, why do good times always passed by so unbelievably fast? Sigh. There's no word that could measure up to how grateful I am to be here in Malaysia right now, there's no place I'd rather be! :) Million thanks to everyone for making my stay here a memorable one, especially my parents for trying their best to bring me back, my KL family for granting all of my cravings, Kak Yana for the good long talks, Rania for playing with auntie, Danny for always being my go to person and taking care of me, Mirul for letting me annoy him every chance I get hehehe and many many more! I had the best time with these beautiful people. I'm so lucky!

As for Ramadhan, it has been very blissful and refreshing. I am so motivated to better myself in any ways I could, insyaAllah and I feel so humbled by all the new things I've learned during this blessed month, God is great. For sure there are ups and downs but life is for the living, so live! No time to waste :)

Here's to more exciting days! Hooray :)

Am I dreaming?

Hi! I am now back home in Malaysia for my 2 months summer break. Alhamdulillah with endless support and prayers from my family and friends, I've passed my Second Year Medicine final exam in UCC and will return to Ireland on the second last week of August as a Third Year medical student! It still feels like a dream to be honest :')

This particular month has made a great impact in my life. If there is ever 'The Best Month Of My Life' I'd say this would be it so far. It is too good to be true that every morning I'll tiny pinch myself just to make sure I'm living in the real world :P

On 31st May, my auntie Dar came to London for our Eurotrip Adventure. Just being with her in London was already amazing, topped off by a sweet reunion with my bestfriend Shafeeq! Things like these are usually only fit for dreams :D Lucky me that my dreams came to life and I had the best time with them! My auntie and I continued our journey to Paris, Brussels and finally Amsterdam before we went home to my place in Cork. I've learned how to travel as a backpacker and I am honestly starting to love the concept! I actually felt a punch on my face as I was thinking to myself about all the money I could've saved by going on trips backpackers style. Well, what's done is done and I am glad I know about this sooner rather than later. I even made new friends along the way, two korean girls, an Australian girl and a Singaporean guy whom now has become a good friend of mine. These unexpected experiences actually helped me grow and matures me at the same time.

Shortly after that, on 15th June morning I received a call from my parents. They told me they have booked my flight home for the summer! I swear my heart stopped for 10 seconds and my I was smiling from ear to ear!! My original plan was to stay in Ireland since it will be my last summer in Europe. However, the idea of staying there all alone sounded better in my head instead of me actually doing it. Haha The bigger part of me THANK GOD that they have saved me from the loneliness of being alone for my holiday but there was and is still a lil part of me that brings up the 'what ifs' questions. Nonetheless, so far I'm having a great time and I am happier being here. There's nothing about it that I would or want to change.

On the same day, 15th June, I flew to London (because the only cheap flight to London was on that day) and stayed there for 2 days because my ride home was on the 17th. I get to spend time with my bestfriend Shafeeq again before I come home! Weee! Thanks to the very kindhearted Puteri for letting me crash her place for two nights!! :) Just thinking back about that day makes me smile. Who would've thought a very much expected to be a normal boring day could turn upside down and brings you to London on that very evening! It's purely luck and all from God's blessings.

On 17th June early morning, half awake Shafeeq sent me off and we said our byebyes before I took the tube to Heathrow Terminal 4. The one hour ride gave me time to really sink my teeth into what's about to happen, which was me going home for the summer! The whole train ride was quite meditating. I felt really blessed and humbled because I knew how impossible this was before that :') One hour ride felt like 30 mins with me being all overwhelmed with gratitude. Haha plus,it was my first time travelling across the world alone which is quite a milestone in my life and everything went on smoothly alhamdulillah! It was also my first time going on Malaysia Airline's Airbus. I have to say, that was the best flight I've ever went on! 11 hours never felt so short! :P

I arrived at KLIA on 18th June and my lovely Kak Yana picked me up. Everything goes on heaven-like mode from that onwards. She treated me with Tony Romas lunch , sushi, the best sizzling lamb chop, made my all time favourite bread butter pudding, and many many many more! Kak Farah came by as well and we played with baby Rania. It felt so good to be back in the comfort of my family :') Love you guys so much! Then mama and papa came to KL and they brought along tok and wan too! We had the biggest dinner ever at Tupai-Tupai. Both my Kulim family and my KL family were there. It would be perfect if Shafeeq was there too but somehow I felt his presence through Kak Yana and Kak Farah, I really felt like he was there with us too that night. We miss you Apit :)

Currently I am enjoying the company of my very naughty brothers and sister and I can't wait to meet my friends in Kulim! May more blessings come our away, InsyaAllah. Have a nice day!